Most of the time, I usually struggle with this little Blog ( as you can note from the 7 month hiatus) for one of the two following reasons:
1) I am to busy to take care of everything else much less this bloggity blog blog.
or - and most likely -
2) I am scared shit-less that I am going to offend someone. (see, right there... I probably just offended someone with my crassness.)
As with most things in life, you run the risk of offending some one. I run that risk everyday. I have a major problem with speaking before thinking, OR thinking and speaking AT THE SAME TIME!! (EEK!!) You know that moment where you realize you just said something in your "out loud voice". So knowing that I am socially inept, I try very diligently to run in circles of people that I except me to who I am, that won't judge me or who won't be offended with a slight vulgarity once and a while.
So that all being said, I wanted to touch on a subject of when you can't avoid people who judge. Who make you uncomfortable in your own skin. Those who will never just accept you for who you simple are. While it is an awkward feeling, it shouldn't be a powerless one. Knowing that it's their issue, not yours, is HUGE. The minute you know that, the better off you will be.
For so many years, I was so concerned with what other people thought. This was due to years and years of listening to my mother tell me, actually ask me, "What will 'so and so' think?" I was seven! Why should I be troubled with questions like that?! It took me awhile to realize that people don't really give a damn about me and my troubles. People are pretty self centered. They don't go home and think... "I wonder what she is doing?" I mean, I had secretly wished all those boys I had crushed on in school did, but I now know that they didn't. People have lives, they have bills, they have troubles. They don't worry about my shoes and the scuffs on them, nor to they care if the braids on my little girl are perfectly straight or not. I look at my mother now, and I see this question still plaguing her. I have many times told her to stop caring to much, and she says "I Know, I know"... but I know she still cares what the neighbors think... even though she has never EVER let the neighbors into her house.
So back to those judgemental crappy people. I think that Dr. Seuss said it best, " Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." Think about that. Surround yourself with people who matter to you, and you matter to them. Sometimes we just have to be around terrible people, but make those moments learning moments. Look and see how you do not want to act by way of how they are acting. Know that these moments are temporary and look at those judgemental, crappy people and hope that they have people in their life that make them better people. Because while you may not like them at that very moment, someone must and they matter to someone too.
As for this blog, I am going to stop worrying so much about offending you guys. I am pretty sure that if you get offended, you can avert your eyes, move your mouse, or just click delete. I would hope that you would start a conversation... that would be the awesome thing to do... but you know... just a suggestion.